Re-awakening Pure Awareness

As I’m sure you know, there are people who have had spontaneous spiritual awakenings such as Eckhart Tolle, Byron Katie and others. Their descriptions of waking up to their essential nature, the limitlessness of Pure Awareness, are inspiring. But people who read these eloquent descriptions are often frustrated because HOW to have a similar genuine awakening experience yourself isn’t clear enough to produce the desired result.

That’s because when someone has a spontaneous awakening it doesn’t come with an owner’s manual. The awakened person doesn’t really know HOW they got there… at least not well enough to guide others in HOW to get there too!

What’s needed is for someone who has a genuine spiritual awakening to also understand HOW they got there and how you can get there too.

I am very blessed to have experienced both such an awakening and exactly HOW anyone who wants this can have it too.

And the good news is that it’s much easier than people think it is to be able to have your own awakening. It appears that I have had the very good fortune to discover the real essence of what’s needed.

It’s simple. It turns out that the only things in the way of experiencing Pure Awareness all the time are disruptive emotions that you have accumulated since early childhood.

These emotions mask the silence of your awareness so that you aren’t conscious that it is in fact there all the time. Why does that happen?

This is also simple. As human beings all of us get emotionally overwhelmed many, many times starting very early in life. Nobody likes it. In fact, we hate having the awful experience of emotional overwhelm so much that we rapidly develop the habit of suppressing many of our emotions.

When some emotional experience is just too much for us to process when it happens, we don’t finish experiencing the sensation of that emotion and so the residue of it gets stored in our body as an incomplete experience.

This is pre-verbal conditioning. It starts to happen long before we develop language. It has no words associated with it. So, as we grow up, we forget that we made a “feeling level decision” to resist feeling things fully. But the habit continues throughout people’s lives. Everyone continues to suppress their emotions without even realizing that they are doing that.

This conditioning seems to be universal. And it is a set up for becoming emotionally incompetent. People just aren’t good at handling their emotions.

Emotions have both content and energy. The unresolved emotional energies have a residual charge to them. These unresolved emotional energies cause us to have many ego and emotionally pain based thoughts. However, we are so used to having these thoughts that we are not conscious of their emotional basis. After all, we’ve been having them all of our life. They are so familiar that they just seem normal.

Tolle is quite right that we need to resolve the pain that creates the “pain body” and extract ourselves from the many identifications that create the false sense of self that we call the ego.

The question is HOW do you do that?

You know the saying that, “Necessity is the mother of invention.” That was certainly true for me after getting shot in the chest by a deranged stranger in 1993.

I lived through this assault and I needed physical recover from the bullet wound and 2 surgeries after this shocking experience but the biggest healing I needed was from the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I had all of the classic PTSD symptoms, nightmares, flashbacks, hyper-vigilance, startle response, anxiety, etc.

I didn’t believe that psychological dogma that PTSD is incurable. I was sure that they must be missing something. So, I want looking for a way to cure myself and it took me about 3 years but… I found it.

When I had this simple insight about everyone becoming good at suppressing their feelings without realizing that they are doing that, I realized that I needed to experiment with doing the exact opposite of what I had been doing all my life.

So, I got my courage up and felt into the most intense part of the energy of the feeling of terror that I could still feel in my chest when I thought about the getting shot incident. To my surprise and delight the energy gradually faded away. The next morning, I woke up with the realization that I had slept through the night without a single nightmare for the first time in over 3 years!

I used what I had discovered several times on any feeling of trauma that I could find associated with the getting shot experience until they were all gone. Then all of the PTSD symptoms were completely gone. I had done what was thought to be impossible. I had cured myself of PTSD!

As I started to share what I had discovered with my friends I rapidly learned that this new skill could be used to resolve all kinds of disruptive emotions. You didn’t have to be severely traumatized to benefit from it.

I discovered this technique in the Spring of 1997. I was so impressed with how effective it was for resolving emotional stress and pain that I decided that every time I would get caught in the grip of an emotion, I would stop what I was doing and feel down into the center of its energy field until it was gone. So, I did that for several months.

I had already been practicing Transcendental Meditation for over 30 years. In fact, I had studied with Maharishi Mahesh Yogi in 1970 and had become a teacher of TM. I had taught hundreds of people how to meditate. So, I was quite familiar with Pure Awareness and had experienced it many times.

I was in a marriage that wasn’t working, and we had plenty of emotional conflicts. So, I was also quite aware that I would still get lost to emotions, sometimes for days at a time. When this would happen, I would lose my connection to Pure Awareness and suffer from the emotional stress and pain.

By mid-July of 1997, I had been doing this process of feeling emotional energies to completion for 4 or 5 months. One evening, I was enjoying some time just being in the silence of Pure Awareness , and all of a sudden, the sense of myself as being separate from everyone and everything melted away and I experienced that what I am is the totality of Awareness Itself.

I already knew this intellectually but somehow from doing this new technique every time I got caught in the grip of emotion for several months, I came out of the illusion that I was a separate individual. The experience was so profound that I started to laugh, and I laughed for about 5 minutes at the huge cosmic joke that I had ever considered myself as a separate, isolated individual.

The beautiful thing is, that this sense of being the limitless, expansive, peaceful state of Pure

Awareness never went away. It’s been there ever since.

I had many friends who were long-term meditators who shared the experience of getting caught in the grip of their emotions even after 30 or 40 years of meditating. Clearly, meditation wasn’t efficiently handling getting rid of these blocks to fully awakening.

What was needed was a way to resolve the disruptive emotions that mask or block the experience of our essential nature. I had fortunately happened upon exactly what was needed during my PTSD recovery. As I taught more and more people how to do this emotional energy resolution technique, I learned that it not only worked for the people who had been doing meditation for many years but also for people who had never practiced meditation or any other form of spiritual practice. Meditation gradually chipped away at these old blockages, but my new discovery targeted them and attacked them head on. It was a huge accelerator of the process of removing to living in Pure Awareness all the time.

Over the years, I discovered some additional Pure Awareness Techniques. Most notably one for resolving a second kind of emotion, what are called reactive emotions. These are the ones that people have when they get upset that things don’t go the way that they think they should or when they project possible negative outcomes onto the future.

People I taught the Pure Awareness Techniques to who really embraced them and used them a lot started to show the “symptoms” of living in Pure Awareness most or even all of the time within a few years of pretty consistent practice.

In the Spring of 2018, I had been teaching my techniques and protocols to hundreds of people in different cities in China. The Chinese really love this stuff! But I can only be in one city at a time and I was starting to feel that it would be very good to train a group of my top students to be presenters of my seminars in China. So, I started a special program to train and certify presenters of my seminars so that we could have them going on in all of the major cities in China every month.

While designing this training program I knew that I wanted to have these presenters be living examples of doing this work. So, I created what I call the Freedom Practice. This is a process of learning how to identify which of the four kinds of thoughts that influence your decisions you are having and then if it is an ego based thought or an emotional pain-based thought, how to determine which kind of thought it is, find the typically deeply suppressed emotional energy at the basis of that thought and then use the appropriate Pure Awareness Technique to resolve that energy… completely and permanently!

So, I taught about 35 of my top Chinese students how to do the Freedom Practice. And to my amazement, they started to show signs of living in Pure Awareness in as little as a few months rather than a few years. What I had developed was exactly what I had intended. It was a vastly accelerated way to have people integrate the Pure Awareness Techniques into their lives. This was made possible by having them use the Intuition Technique to determine if a particular thought was an ego-based thought or an emotional pain-based thought. Then they go access to the emotional energy at the basis of that thought that previously they didn’t even know that the emotional energy was there. Now they could make something that had been unconscious – conscious.  

I was delighted. Now it didn’t even matter what they would say when presenting because everything that came out of their mouth would be coming from Pure Awareness. People might not be able to articulate what they were experiencing as they listened to these presenters but the audience would be feeling – “I want what she has!”

These presenters have been doing the Freedom Practice now for about a year and a half as of this writing. It has been incredible to see how rapidly they have transformed and how different they are now. They can’t stop thanking me for the transformation of their lives. Previously stressful things either don’t create emotional reactions or if they do, they get resolved instantly. They relate many experiences of the sustained experience of Pure Awareness being richly present all of the time.  

The Freedom Practice is providing exactly the structure that really supports people integrating Pure Awareness into their life in a rapid and profound way. It seems to have accelerated this process to be at least 10 times faster than people were experiencing before, and that was already much faster than any of the older traditional practices.

There will be a 2-day seminar in the Yelm, Washington area on August 31, 2019 for learning how to do the Freedom Practice. To see the details about this seminar see this page – The Power of How Seminar.